Who am I ? I am 22-years old, a cosmetologist by trade, a third-year Commerce student majoring in Management- and I am a birthmother to a darling boy who was born in June of 2010- just 2 weeks after I graduated high school. I started this blog four years ago as I was dealing with the emotional aftermath of placing my child for adoption. I started it for personal reasons because it was an easy way for me to document my experience and rehabilitate myself by writing my feelings out. What started out as a personal journal quickly became a public display for everyone to read.. At first I was a little hesitant, because I was being so vulnerable. I was allowing everyone to be a part of what I was going through, the good and the bad. But I then decided that this blog was a great way for me to shed a little light on what adoption is really like, and why I did what I did. My life has since progressed slowly past this emotional and difficult time, and I am doing wonderful now. Yes, I still have my hard days as every birthparent does, but they are few and far between as they are replaced by happy memories and experiences as I see my birth-son grow up.
Being a birthmother does not define me- it strengthens me.
I would not be where I am today if I had not gone through the incredible experience of having a child and placing that child for adoption. Each step I take is part of my journey to where I one day want to end up.
I have the best life I could ask for, and have stayed so optimistic in my trials because of the faith I have. Not a day goes by that I don't think of that little boy, and how much love I have for him. I owe so much to him. I live my life each day with the sole intention of making him proud.
My name is Dallas, and I am a birthmother.
"I'd start this out by saying that my heart is breaking, but that wouldn't truly convey the depth of my feeling. There's no use concealing the things I don't know how to say... It's a hard test when what's best for you is hardest for me. "